ATTACKS BY SATAN: This is a personal story (without the names)
For weeks now I have been pushed around by a fellow member of, believe it or not, my ministry team! On many occasions this person has caused me to feel small and belittled. Feeling small is something I struggle with daily (i.e. my previous blog about insecurities—it was number 3) which this person wouldn’t know because they haven’t taken time to see and know who I truly am in Christ. It’s strange to me because I am so friendly and seem to have a generally “good friendship” with this person from day to day. However, this person finds moments to take jabs and steal my joy when I’m simply having a good time. It really hurts because it’s always very public and many people see this person as a “golden one”. I don’t understand why this happening but it hurts more than this person could realize. It just so happens that this evening I got reprimanded by a leader of our ministry, or rather addressed shall I say, because one of my photo posted as my profile picture on one of my social networks was deemed “inappropriate” and “immodest” and reported to our leader by some people on the team. Now I honestly wouldn’t have thought instantly of this person if they hadn’t left a rude comment on the photo a few days earlier. A comment, that if you were really concerned with my picture, would have been better left for a message or face to face. I know this is Satan doing work and it is really defeating my feelings and honestly…..I’ve cried on more than one occasion to my mother about this. I don’t know how to handle this and I want to be able to do it in the most Christ like way possible. And throughout my days spending time with God, I’ve been feeling like it’s not transforming me and making a difference though I am in full sincerity before God and our time together. And now that I see these attacks I am fully aware now that I have to be becoming more like Christ because Satan wouldn’t attack me otherwise! What a revelation! This is what I have to cling to now. But I would appreciate any prayers you can offer as I try to handle this situation and develop my relationship with the Lord and yearn to hear his voice.
Malorie Agnes Cunningham